It was the summer of 2005. I finally got to choreograph an hour-long performance for an audience of 800 people. I had been waiting for this opportunity for years.
And there I was, crying, panicking - telling myself that I had been crazy to request this much - to think that I would be able to do this. Making an hour-long performance in just one week, what was I thinking!
The director of the festival took me out for a walk. He just held space for me to talk. Then he said:
"You know, at some point, you're just good at something. The only thing you need to do is SHOW UP."
This finally stopped me from talking and panicking. What if that was true. No more preparing, quickly wanting to read all plays that had been written about love (my topic - I mean there's a lot of plays to read about that - I would never be ready) -
What if I just dropped it all
Would go to bed
And just SHOWED UP in the next morning.
Fast forward, I did take his advice.
I dropped all the worrying and over-thinking and I made one of the best performances I had ever made. By simply showing up.
All of this made me wonder, where can you simply show up
- where do you over prepare,
- wait until you are ready,
- or simply freak out because you think you first need to be more, or less or better at something?
IT IS TIME TO...
...SHOW UP and be present
...SHOW UP and allow you knowledge and insights to flow
...SHOW UP and give all you got (without doubting yourself or playing small).
What would you do today if you would SHOW UP?
Or what is holding you back?
Let me know in the comments!